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10. Not because I want that spanking again. I do not! But I came to a discovery as the days went on. Gary spanked me again the next week. Oddly enough he called it a 'top up' although I reassured him I hadn't forgotten the first message. Nothing sexual involved in the tone at all. When he asked me if I 'dreaded' the spankings I had to honestly ask myself the same question. What I came up with was no. I didn't dread them for the simple reason I have come to trust him so much, that I know he won't hurt me. He would never do something that made me insecure. But saying that, if I were to dread a spanking, or get close to that point, I'd be telling him quickly. In the dynamic of the relationship, if I am going to hate something then I'd rather not do it. It's one thing to dislike, be uncomfortable or downright embarrassed or inconvenient. But to dread or hate...I'll give it up first. Why would he want me to have those feelings? He wouldn't. It's much better to go back to square one. Which I have been doing for years. Telling him repeatedly what is possible for me, what isn't. This time, he felt I hadn't looked at all my options. He was right. I am far more cognizant now to watch my downtime, rather than fill it up. Sometimes not the easiest decision, but oddly enough, the possibilities are there. Which way to go? Sometimes I'm right, sometimes I'm wrong. But I'll certainly take a close look before I make the right choice.
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14. by Blush on 2006 Nov 12 - 05:40 | reply to this comment
15. How he takes charge
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